Mishka's Heart: I for one, will NOT be sad to see the turn of the ...

Mishka's Heart: I for one, will NOT be sad to see the turn of the ...: I for one, will NOT be sad to see the turn of the calender this year. I know others have had the opposite experience. What I have learned fo...

I for one, will NOT be sad to see the turn of the calender this year. I know others have had the opposite experience. What I have learned for certain is ..... this too shall pass. Be it good, bad or indifferent. This not only applies to years; but to months, weeks and days also. This too shall pass. So if it is wonderful, enjoy it while you can; and take those lovely memories forward to help you in times that are harder. If it is hard or sad, learn what you can and KNOW...that it will pass....eventually. I know that the emotions we bring with us will linger much longer than any actual experience; but try to let the good ones bring you back to your very core, and let the bad ones teach us to be kinder and more tolerant to those who are going through hard times themselves. I hope that in this New Year coming upon us that you find the serenity, courage, and strength to remain who you truly are, and in this that you find the joy of knowing..... I love you all. Talk to you next year..... or at least in a couple days. Happy New Year. Love, Mishka.

Mishka's Heart: Betrayal. Remain who you are.....

Mishka's Heart: Betrayal. Remain who you are.....: When people treat me badly. I have a choice. I can stay true to myself and my moral code and the core of who I am, or I can stab them in the...

Betrayal. Remain who you are.....

When people treat me badly. I have a choice. I can stay true to myself and my moral code and the core of who I am, or I can stab them in the back as they have done to me. Oh, sometimes it is tempting, until I look in the mirror. Then I remember WHO I am. I WILL NOT let the ugliness, betrayal, and vicious backstabbing that is occurring to taint my soul. I REFUSE. It is not that I am not capable of it. I am sure that I could be. But I refuse to let myself veer into that abyss. I will remain ME. Stay true to MYSELF, and follow my inner guide. But my enemies be warned, (and they have made themselves thus of their own accord) that this does not make me weak. It only makes me stronger. No matter what happens I will stay true to my core. If it works out in my favor so be it. If not, I will deal with that when it happens. The saddest thing about all of this, is that I am having war waged upon me for things which have no monetary or other value except the deeply sentimental and loving value they have for me. The people doing this are doing it to be vindictive. I am trying to keep my chin up, but my heart is broken.....again. I know I am too trusting and forgiving. I will not change this either. If others choose to take advantage of that fact, it is on them. I KNOW that eventually, what you put out and onto others will eventually, return and find you. Maybe their Christmas gift should be 30 pieces of silver. It would be so very appropriate. I will NOT give up hope, and neither these acts, nor the people perpetrating them will crush me. Love, Mishka

Mishka's Heart: 'Be who you really are; not who you have allowed y...

Mishka's Heart: 'Be who you really are; not who you have allowed y...: Many bad things will happen to us in this lifetime. People will betray us. They will lie. Some things, like death of a loved one are impossi...

'Be who you really are; not who you have allowed yourself to become'

Many bad things will happen to us in this lifetime. People will betray us. They will lie. Some things, like death of a loved one are impossible to avoid. There is no doubt that it will change us. Hell, we change each moment we are alive. What prompted this post, was a friend who said something which really struck me. She was saying we should leave our past behind. We cannot, nor should do that. Each moment we go through helps us to become. I told her that we should learn from it, feel it, accept that it has changed us, but not to let it change who we are at our core. Not to steal the very heart of who we are. She said... Too late. It almost broke my heart by the inherent loss of hope in that statement. I told her it is NEVER too late. We can always take ourselves back. Yes it is difficult. Yes, we will always be different from the experience, but we CAN learn how to keep OURSELVES. 
Please don't lose hope. We will always have each other to help us see our way back if we lose it. Always. I know there are so many of us who feel we will never be the same after such things. This is true, but we can still be good. We can still have hope and we can still stay true to ourselves. A few of my favorite quotes illuminate this so very well. First, 'Be who you really are; not who you have allowed yourself to become'. Always ask yourself who you are becoming and if it is someone you don't want to be....seek a way to find that person. Second, 'Just when the caterpillar thought the word was over; she became a butterfly'. Sometimes just when we feel we are at the end of our rope.....we find it is longer than we thought and there is more beauty and love there that we would have imagined. Thirdly, 'Everyone admires the beauty of the butterfly, without really thinking about what it had to go through to get there'.  We may have to go through hell, trial by fire; more than we ever thought we could bear, but we can still emerge even more beautiful and triumphant for that experience. Feel the hard things (don't try to downplay or diminish them), learn from them....then emerge triumphant and be who you have the potential to be. No it will not be easy, but none of the most wonderful and rewarding things truly are. Love, Mishka.
Lastly, if you are still struggling...there is a great support group online that has groups for everything from depression to many ailments that we all struggle with to situations like abuse. I am sharing the link for anyone who feels they need it. Feel free to private message me if you want to know my 'name' on there. Yes, I need someplace special sometimes too. 
www.dailystrength.org    <3

Mishka's Heart: One With the Universe?

Mishka's Heart: One With the Universe?: The Universe..... She is full of purity and love as well as evil. Light and dark. The achingly beautiful and the hideously profane. Universa...

One With the Universe?

The Universe..... She is full of purity and love as well as evil. Light and dark. The achingly beautiful and the hideously profane. Universal consciousness is not something I wish to obtain. I would rather keep my individuality. There is also the seriously sharp point that we need all of these. There can be no light without darkness to emphasize it. Purity and love will always be needed to defy evil. The profane is there to allow us to truly appreciate beauty. This does not mean that we do not strive for the purity, love, light, and beauty. It merely means that we accept that the opposites will always be there..... It is not MEANT for this Universe to only have one experience. The most important thing we are given in this life is free will. If there is only one experience, this is a moot point. There MUST be individual consciousness above the Universal...ALWAYS. For the individuality is what makes us each unique and remarkable human beings, rather that unified robots. We must use our free will and do the best we can for ourselves and others; in our own precious, delightfully flawed way. You do not need to be one with the Universe. You need to use that individuality to make it a better place. <3 Mishka

Mishka's Heart: Allow yourself to grieve....

Mishka's Heart: Allow yourself to grieve....: Grief is such a deeply intimate thing. There are as many ways to grieve as there are creatures upon this Earth.  Never let someone else...

Allow yourself to grieve....

Grief is such a deeply intimate thing. There are as many ways to grieve as there are creatures upon this Earth.  Never let someone else tell you that you are grieving in the wrong way; or that you are grieving too long. It is different to each of us. It is different each time we lose someone, or even a beloved pet. It is always traumatic. Don't fight it. It is a natural and common thing.  I said we lose someone. In truth, they have moved on and left us behind. Even if we are lucky enough to feel our loved ones once they have passed on, it is not the same. We are left with a void where that living breathing source of our joy, and sometimes our pain, once so vibrantly occupied. The hard thing is that we see them; everywhere. Places that brought us joy, now torment. Memories are a blessing and a curse all at the same time. They will ever live in our hearts and souls, but we will always miss them. Always feel the VOID. It is even more physically visceral than when the person was alive sometimes. You can actually FEEL it. The empty place they once occupied. Allow yourself to feel the sadness, the anger, the frustration. Whatever else you feel. Even sometimes relief if someone has suffered for a long time. You will grieve as long as you will grieve. One day it will get a little better, then a little bit more. Some losses are etched upon our souls and we will never truly get over them. We will learn to live with the VOID, but we will always be AWARE of it. We will always feel it ....always. Be gentle with yourself; and cut yourself the slack you would to others in the same situation. It is okay if you are 'not yourself' for a while. You may be changed forever. None of us stays the same. Allow yourself to acknowledge that you change also. Accept the acceptable, and try not to let the uglier side of grief turn you into someone you cannot live with. Remember, love is forever. Our spirits live on, moving on to the next phase of their journey. We here on Earth, must live with the emptiness where our loved one once lived.  But this too shall pass. We will once more emerge, as the butterfly, who has had to transform into something completely different than it once was; but also into something infinitely more beautiful. Hopefully it teaches us compassion for others who must travel the same difficult path. That means all of us. BE LOVE. Love, Mishka.

Mishka's Heart: Listen to Your Soul

Mishka's Heart: Listen to Your Soul: No matter what you believe; politically, religiously, personally, there will be those who will bash you for it. There are those who will be ...

Mishka's Heart: Serenity

Mishka's Heart: Serenity: I am finding that serenity is not perfect peace. It is facing the storm and realizing that you cannot control it; that you can only ride it ...

Mishka's Heart: Forgiveness

Mishka's Heart: Forgiveness: Forgiveness is a good and noble thing. It releases our hearts. But it is NOT about forgetting what has happened or being naive and allowing ...

Mishka's Heart: Gifts from the Universe

Mishka's Heart: Gifts from the Universe: I just had the most lovely experience. I went outside to see if the rain let up, it did not. So I did not get to see the moon. I wal...

Mishka's Heart: Depression

Mishka's Heart: Depression: Depression is a difficult thing to describe to someone who has never had it. It is not a matter of just trying to think positively or s...

Mishka's Heart: Shine Your OWN LIght

Mishka's Heart: Shine Your OWN LIght: Just because one is not a sun shiny day kind of person does not mean their light does not shine. I have finally figured out that just becaus...

Mishka's Heart: Love.....Just love

Mishka's Heart: Love.....Just love: I firmly believe that the love we have for each other, our countries, animals, our planet, the universe and our God (Goddess or whatever you...

Mishka's Heart: Mishka's Heart: Acceptance.....

Mishka's Heart: Mishka's Heart: Acceptance.....: Mishka's Heart: Acceptance..... : Acceptance is a difficult art to master.  I am learning that is not about a lessening of sadness, or p...

Mishka's Heart: Mishka's Heart: Acceptance.....

Mishka's Heart: Mishka's Heart: Acceptance.....: Mishka's Heart: Acceptance..... : Acceptance is a difficult art to master.  I am learning that is not about a lessening of sadness, or p...

Mishka's Heart: Be a Phoenix Rising

Mishka's Heart: Be a Phoenix Rising: The Phoenix, which is my favorite expression of the Death card in Tarot, is a deep reminder that we can, and will, come through the fi...

Be a Phoenix Rising

The Phoenix, which is my favorite expression of the Death card in Tarot, is a deep reminder that we can, and will, come through the fire. We can emerge stronger or we can simply let the flames destroy us. This is a symbol to all those going through a hard time right now. Hang on. You CAN make it.....and still be beautiful, strong and amazing on the other side. I know that difficult things come up in life. Some of them even seem insurmountable.....This amazing symbol reminds us, that even when we feel like we are alone, there is always magic, love, and people outside ourselves that will help to see us through. I know it seems that giving up can seem like an option. The Phoenix teaches us that option is only an illusion. Even in death, there is rebirth. Hang in there. <3 Mishka

Learn to use your intuition

We have been trained from an early age to ignore our intuition or 'gut' feelings. There were times when we did not like someone, and uncle or friend of the family. We were told that we were being silly or that it was just our imagination. As a result we learned to ignore or worse, mistrust that oh so important voice from within. What we have forgotten about it, would dwarf what we remember. It is important to begin trusting that voice again. Simple things. Like listening to your own counsel before a decision. Even one as simple as how early to leave in order to get somewhere on time. A fun exercise to do is using either note cards which you have colored on the back or crayons. Put them face down (cards) try using your intuition to pick which card has which color. The other one is to take a handful of crayons and close your eyes and pick one up and try to guess the color.

There is another part of intuition that we refuse to use. It is when we meet people and have an instant reaction to them...good or bad. The same goes for places and situations. People read 'auras' all the time. We do it every day. An aura is no more or no less than the electrical field we produce just by living extending just outside our physical bodies. That is all it is, but because we are humans and have personalities and souls, part of that is extended with the electrical field. Do NOT ignore your reactions to this. We do it all the time. Someone says, let me help you with your groceries up to your house or apartment and you are instantly hit with a bad feeling in the pit of your stomach. Something tells you not to go a certain way to work etc. This is our mind and bodies way of protecting us. We ignore it most of the time because of what we were taught when we were children. It is your imagination, don't be silly. Or because we do not want to be rude. Well, I am giving you permission to be rude and walk away from anyone or anything that feels 'yucky' to you. I call it my spidey sense.  Animals do this all the time to gauge whether or not another animal or place, or situation is safe. We have forgotten how to do this. Start with small things. Really think about how a person or place effects you. See if you were right or wrong about it. This is one of the best tools we have from our ancestors to help us navigate this world. Learn to trust yours again and do NOT let anyone make you feel silly for doing it. Learn how it tells you what you need to know, and how to trust it again.... <3 Mishka.

Mishka's Heart: Acceptance.....

Mishka's Heart: Acceptance.....: Acceptance is a difficult art to master.  I am learning that is not about a lessening of sadness, or pain, or anger; rather it is the capaci...

Acceptance.....

Acceptance is a difficult art to master.  I am learning that is not about a lessening of sadness, or pain, or anger; rather it is the capacity to take it all in, feel it, and own it as your own. To know deep in your soul that you have no control over what is occurring or what will occur. Some things we will be able to do something about. The ones I am speaking of here are the ones we cannot.The are the ones that are so painful, that our soul cries out for justice, but we know on some level, that may not happen. Acceptance allows us to take that into ourselves, understanding that it may never be right, and say.....out LOUD if you need to..... I accept that. Then dealing with the emotional shrapnel with as much dignity as we can. IT means that even though our heart is shattered, our mental state- what we thought was a sure thing- has been dramatically diminished; at least temporarily, and our anger is screaming for revenge.....that we KNOW we will get through this. That some terrible things just happen; but now when they do we have this incredible gift, this art, of acceptance. Allow the pain to surge through you, mourn. That is what we do when we are sad.. Don't let some one tell you how long you have to mourn either.....oh HEEL no. Acknowledge it. Feel it. Morn it. Accept it will be part of you for a while. Allow the sadness to stream down your face and over your soul. Breath it into yourself and cry or weep or wail until you don't feel like you are dying inside. Accept that you have the right to be sad and mourn. When the rage rushes through your blood like fire. Clenching your muscles......even screaming out if you need to. Acknowledge it. Accept you are going to be angry and try to handle it as best you can. Allow yourself to be human and feel all you need to feel. Then try acceptance. IT is so very liberating. Look at the situation though your tears and say, this, here, I can do NOTHING about. I ACCEPT THAT.  I ACCEPT THAT I AM GOING TO BE HURTING FOR QUITE A WHILE. ACCEPT....AND THIS IS THE MOST IMPORTANT...THAT YOU ARE IN CONTROL OF HOW YOU LET IT CHANGE YOU.  For the  most part anyway. Accept you will have bad moments. But refuse to accept they will All be bad. Let it sink into your heart, your mind your soul. Let it give you a beautiful amazing serenity in the midst of hell. You can do this. Practice makes perfect. The first time I REALLY felt acceptance was when my ex husband left me. I asked him one more time if he would go to therapy or if there was anything I could do....he looked me in the eye, and I suddenly (at least for that moment ) became very calm. I knew he meant what he said....and I ACCEPTED it. IT was so liberating. I knew that what destroyed our marriage, was not me, and that I could have done nothing to stop it, and it was this huge weight lifted from my shoulders. Many other things occurred that did not have the same clarity, but at that moment, as sad as I was, I felt serene. I KNEW that this thing was going to happen and I just accepted it. My Mother later asked me how I handled my divorce so well. I said, I accepted how he was behaving, that it was happening, and I just did what I needed to do. There was no responsibility on me for what happened. Do yourselves a favor and learn this precious gift. If you have questions, hit me up on here or on facebook. <3 Mishka

Love.....Just love

I firmly believe that the love we have for each other, our countries, animals, our planet, the universe and our God (Goddess or whatever you choose to believe in); is what has kept us from being eradicated from the Earth. That amazing capacity we have. It is not to be taken lightly. It is a gift. Do not let circumstances or people take that ability away from you. Will our love change the hearts of those who hate? Some of them yes. Most of them no. That is not why we continue to love. We do it because it is our nature. Because it is the right thing to do. Is it harder....YES. It is supposed to be DAMMIT. :). Follow your intuition, your heart, your very soul. That is what they are there for. They are our guides. Our light at the end of the tunnel. Do NOT do things in this life because they are easy or popular. Do things in this life, because deep down, you KNOW they are the right things to do. There is one rule. It is worded in many different ways and is a tenet of many religions, for a reason. Follow this rule and you don't have to worry about the rest because everything else will just fall into place. 'Do on to others the way you would have them do on to you..... The people, the land, the Earth, the Universe. Follow that one rule, and all else falls into place. Much love, Mishka. <3

Shine Your OWN LIght

Just because one is not a sun shiny day kind of person does not mean their light does not shine. I have finally figured out that just because I prefer moonlight to sunlight and darker things to cutesy things, does not make me negative. We are all different. I prefer the night. Think of how one star or the moon can illuminate the darkness.... The sun can sometimes be too much for us. Too bright. Too aggressive. Sometimes we need the gentle nurturing glow of the moon. Allow your TRUE light to shine. It does not have to be the brightest. What matters is how you use it. Spread beauty and kindness. Let your light shine in whatever way it wishes. <3 Mishka

Depression

Depression is a difficult thing to describe to someone who has never had it. It is not a matter of just trying to think positively or snap out of a funk. It is like falling off a cliff or being lost in a deep dark cave. Part of you wants to escape. Part of you becomes enamored with the solitude and darkness. It sucks you in. Without professional help it is like riding down a razor blade and into a vat of lemon juice (emotionally) over and over.....It is so debilitating that you feel as if you will never see the light again. Even worse....you don't care. You feel so numb but are in so much pain at the same time. It is your own private hell. It is so intimate that it is hard to share what is going on inside. But I beg of you. Reach out. You CAN find your way out of the darkness. You may not be the same. But that is okay. Love who you are. You got there by going through hell and living to tell about it. Don't be ashamed. Your heart just feels too much. Please let those around you help you and seek help from a professional. You are worth so very much. You are everything. And for those of you who know someone going through this....give love and patience. It is not about just changing how one thinks. It is an illness and goes so much deeper than that. Try to just be there even if you cannot understand. I know it is hard to watch someone you love in pain, but there is only one thing you can do. Be there. Be kind to each other. <3 Mishka

Gifts from the Universe

I just had the most lovely experience. I went outside to see if the rain let up, it did not. So I did not get to see the moon. I walked back in and up to wash up before bed and low and behold there was a small moth on my nightgown. I looked it up. He, was what is called a chickweed moth. He was very small and a very lovely golden color, like the moon when it just rises. He had a border of pink on his wings....like the moon can be. I took it for the gift it was. He just let me handle him. He sat on my finger for the longest time. I finally took him back down and let him outside. Thanks for the love Universe. Mishka...here is a pic.

Forgiveness

Forgiveness is a good and noble thing. It releases our hearts. But it is NOT about forgetting what has happened or being naive and allowing others to abuse us in a similar manner over and over. Forgiveness does not automatically flip the trust switch to on again. Forgiveness does not mean that we have to pretend that the things that occurred never happened or that we can never speak of them again. It means that you realize that mistakes happen. You forgive the act and release as best you can the bitterness and anger that accompany it.  If you are still angry, or bitter; that is okay. Let yourself deal with those emotions naturally. Let them go naturally. Don't hold on to them. But do not let others tell you how long to feel badly about what happened. Allow yourself the courtesy of acknowledging your pain. Forgiveness does not equate with the absence of pain. It means you can still feel the pain, but release the need to hold on to a grudge. Forgive, but do not be afraid or shamed into pretending it never happened. That would be a disservice to everyone involved. <3 Mishka

Serenity

I am finding that serenity is not perfect peace. It is facing the storm and realizing that you cannot control it; that you can only ride it out. It is facing life and beginning to KNOW which things you can do something about and those you cannot. It is also knowing that sometimes you MUST do something. Doing your best, and then letting things happen the way they will. It does not mean that you only feel peace. It means that you accept what feelings you have for what they are, experience them and then let them go at their own pace. Trying to force them along more quickly is not an option. It is also knowing that some things will change us forever, and that is okay. Accept yourself for who you are now, but act according to your character and convictions. There you will find serenity. <3 Mishka

Listen to Your Soul

No matter what you believe; politically, religiously, personally, there will be those who will bash you for it. There are those who will be offended by it. There will also be those who believe as you do. What you need to understand is that the only true voice you need to listen to is the deep quiet one inside YOU. Your conscience, your intuition; whatever you wish to call it. Stay true to yourself, the very core of your being, it makes all of life's difficult decisions so much easier to make. It will not always be easy to stand by your convictions, but once you begin to stand by them, they will further hold you up. Don't water them down to appease those around you. Stand up and be proud, but do it with respect and integrity. When you allow yourself the freedom to accept who you really are without apologies, you can do what you were meant to do....without shame, or reticence, or fear. Let yourself soar. I will end with one of my favorite quotes. 'Be who you really are, not who you have allowed yourself to become.' <3 Mishka

New Blog....

Hello my angels...I have been going down a new path for quite some time. Some of it hellish, some of it enlightening and some of it inspiring. I have wanted to start a new blog for some time now. One where I can talk about my journey and hear about yours. It can cover just about anything... It will depend where I am that day. But as the title says, everything on here will be from the heart. <3 Mishka